It struck me the other day that, as my three and a half year old will be starting school later this year, I will probably be past the “mum probationary period”.
If you’re scratching your head, wondering what I’m on about, cast your mind back to those early newborn days and try to remember some of the things you were asked by well-meaning visitors.
“How is motherhood treating you?” might have been one question. “Are you settling into motherhood well?” might have been another. And then there are all the comments you probably had to field about sleep and feeding – both the baby’s and your own.
I caught myself asking this exact same question the other day. The thing is, I wasn’t even asking it of someone I knew. “How is she settling into motherhood?” was my question. The answer was an immediate, “Oh she loves it, she’s a natural.” It wasn’t until later that I realised I’d fallen into the trap of becoming a “tester”; one of the types of people I actively avoided as a new mum.
I remember now, so clearly, the spotlight I often felt under when Frog was a newborn. To a certain extent, I suppose it’s only natural – people are seeing you in a different way for the first time. And then, they want to make conversation with you about this new phase of your life. But so often – oh SO often – I felt like a new employee, on some kind of probationary period, desperate not to muck it up on the first week of the job.
Eager to prove myself and live up to the role, I would sometimes find myself lying. “Oh things are GREAT!” I’d say, even if I’d been up ALL night and had boobs that were rock hard and sore. Of course I loved my baby, and I was lucky enough not to experience postnatal depression, but there were still some days where I didn’t feel like the jolly new motherhood recruit that I was portraying myself to be.
I’ve read lots since becoming a mother about competition between mums. There is absolutely no doubt that this goes on – from who has the “best” sleeper to who has the “fastest” crawler – but there’s an element of the whole motherhood thing that we sometimes overlook. An outside element, from well-meaning relatives, friends, friends-of-friends. All wanting to “check up” on you, make sure you’re doing OK and – occasionally – be a bit nosey.
So if you have a friend who has just become a mother, do her a favour and don’t put her under a spotlight. Chances are, she might feel she has to prove herself anyway, but don’t make it any worse.
Just make her a cup of tea, sit quietly and tell her how beautiful her baby is. That way, you may get an honest answer when she’s eventually ready to tell you how she’s really doing.
[Photo credit: CP Photography]