Organisation takes on a new meaning when you have a baby. I remember, with Frog, spending a while sourcing decent second hand baby stuff, buying new bits and squirrelling stuff away so I felt “ready” to be a mum. As if the very fact of owning a car seat would make me fully prepared for the adventure ahead. I think it’s the psychological aspect to the whole nesting thing. The more you clean or sort through stuff, the calmer you feel about the chaos that’s about to erupt. Or maybe that’s just me.
Anyway, things haven’t been that different this time around. The last week has been spent getting the baby’s room in order. We’re nearly there – the walls are painted, the new cot is up, my late grandmother’s rocking chair is newly upcycled and in the corner. We just have to put up some shelves and accessorise it all with a few last pretty bits (baby mobile, the odd print, a cute lamp).
I’ll be blogging about it properly once it’s done, but here’s a little preview…
We’re going away again soon, so I’ve been in a bit of a rush to get on top of a few work deadlines, as well as sort out baby clothes and the stuff in the loft (yet to be done). I don’t know if that’s contributing to my current feeling of slight panic, but I know it’s not helping.
In a couple of days I’ll hit the 35 week mark and that’s kind of scary. If I had the beginning of maternity leave and no other child to look after then it wouldn’t seem such a big milestone. But, as it stands, the end of this pregnancy coincides with my daughter starting school and a very busy two weeks of work. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t starting to feel a bit sick.
Yesterday I had a huge panic about it all. Mixed in between the excitement of meeting our new baby and seeing Frog become a big sister, is this underlying worry. It’s stupid, but I’m nervous about how I’ll do the school run and get us all out of the house by 8.30am every morning. I’m helping a friend a couple of mornings so there will be two children to take to school, along with a baby to feed and change. I know I’ll be OK and I’ll make it work, but my natural state of worrier is taking over a bit at the moment!
I think the organisation of the baby stuff is my way of trying to take some control and feel at least a little prepared. I wanted to go into September with all the big baby stuff organised – the clothes washed, the hospital bag packed, the nursery decorated. In my head, once that was done, I could fully focus on all the other stuff that September will throw at us. Does that sound stupid? Probably.
Anyway, in between the nerves I’ve been feeling very positive about things. I’m still well and have plenty of energy during the day. I’ve got another midwife appointment later today and then we have a home visit from the health visitor in a couple of weeks, which is brilliant and something that never happened when we lived in Berkshire.
The hormones seem to be doing their job – I’m excited about breastfeeding again and being back in the baby zone. And I’m continuing to enjoy long bubble baths, pregnancy yoga and slathering delicious smelling cream onto the growing bump. (My new favourite is this TEN hydration cream I was sent to review. It’s creamy and smells lovely – I’ve been plastering myself in it every morning and night!).
I can’t believe we’ve had 15 weeks of the #BlogBumpClub already. Last week I absolutely loved this simple and beautiful post from Dambaby. If you’ve got a couple of minutes read it – it’ll be worth it, I promise.
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